My spot http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022 Minfire Hello there. I've never actually finished this challenge, but it helps posting here, I've found. This probably won't make sense if anyone happens to read it, but it makes sense to me, and that's what counts, yes? Unfortunately, I'm not sure what my goals are. I've had lyme disease for the last few years, and I'm struggling to put my life back together now that I'm taking a semester off college. I guess that's it. Putting my life back together. I need to find balance. Between sleeping and calling friends. And once my college friends leave, I need patience to remember my few younger friends have school and IB, and so can't hang out all the time. I need something to do in these wee hours of the morning where I can't make much noise or I'll wake the whole sleep-deprived house up. I'm thinking writing, which is why I'm here. But it is really, really hard. The lyme attacked my brain, and I've got loads of neurological symptoms if I stress my body too much. I've also lost lots of memory and skills. Last year, I relearned how to write essays and poems. This year... novels? No offense, but I don't really like essays or poetry. I'm basically turning this into an excuse for a blog, sorry ^^ Okay: problems I want to tackle -Balance! -Figure out a way to get food... (long story) -Research more on my illnesses (okay, I have more than lyme) -Learn how to write stories again. Can't be that hard... right? Tue, 10 Jan 2012 01:32:10 -0700 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1046578 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1046578 Minfire Okay, good overview. Now, I will let myself angst about everything in the hope that it will cleanse my writing spirit ^^ Writing. Is. Hard. I know once I get back into it, it'll be fun. The two things I like most about writing are one, Writing, the way you feel pounding out a story, and two, Writing brain, the way everything else looks to me after I've been writing. Beautiful, a whole different perspective. Writing solves something in me, a problem I forget I even have most of the time- the problem of being dulled to life due to pain, survival, and the usual. Writing is good for me. Writing is bad for me. It hurts. Like everything else in my life right now, it causes physical symptoms. And I'm not sure it's right for me anymore, or that I can. But if I can't, who'll read the middle school writing club? I promised. And I identify as a writer, darnit. Am I going to accept that lyme threw me off my path, and embrace the person I've become, or try to reclaim bits of my old life? Is it even possible? Huh. I think one of my problems is worrying too much/thinking about this too much. Also, this would still be a lot easier without the memory loss! New resolution: -Journal more often too Tue, 10 Jan 2012 01:38:49 -0700 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1046587 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1046587 Minfire Okay, good overview. Now, I will let myself angst about everything in the hope that it will cleanse my writing spirit ^^ Writing. Is. Hard. I know once I get back into it, it'll be fun. The two things I like most about writing are one, Writing, the way you feel pounding out a story, and two, Writing brain, the way everything else looks to me after I've been writing. Beautiful, a whole different perspective. Writing solves something in me, a problem I forget I even have most of the time- the problem of being dulled to life due to pain, survival, and the usual. Writing is good for me. Writing is bad for me. It hurts. Like everything else in my life right now, it causes physical symptoms. And I'm not sure it's right for me anymore, or that I can. But if I can't, who'll read the middle school writing club? I promised. And I identify as a writer, darnit. Am I going to accept that lyme threw me off my path, and embrace the person I've become, or try to reclaim bits of my old life? Is it even possible? Huh. I think one of my problems is worrying too much/thinking about this too much. Also, this would still be a lot easier without the memory loss! New resolution: -Journal more often too Tue, 10 Jan 2012 01:39:53 -0700 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1046590 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1046590 Minfire Whoops. Is there a way to delete or edit your comments on here? I've gotten used to other forums. Tue, 10 Jan 2012 01:42:13 -0700 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1046591 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1046591 Dragon Gal Good luck, Minfire! Don't give up hope. I would suggest getting back into writing slowly. It might be beneficial to set yourself a small daily goal, like, 500 words a day or less, where you work on writing a story (or in your journal, since you mentioned that, too.) I really think you'll manage this. And if you ever want to chat, or angst about how it's going, feel free to NaNoMail me! Sat, 18 Feb 2012 01:56:55 -0700 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1149411 http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/forums/the-year-of-doing-big-fun-scary-things-together/threads/49022?page=1#forum_thread_comment_1149411