I actually cried at what I was writing.
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I actually cried at what I was writing.
In the middle of a climactic situation where the FMC and MMC find out that they are going to be separated (they're best friends) I actually started to tear up. It felt good.
Has this ever happened to you?
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There's a scene near the end of my novel where my MC is reunited with her mother (the MC ran away from home at the beginning of the novel). Even writing about it here is making me tear up a little bit... I do like the feeling of writing something that makes me cry even though I don't like crying. It just makes me feel like that it's well written, you know?
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That happens in one of my stories! Those kind of scenes, they're so powerful :o
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I know!
It was kind of unexpected too, I didn't mean for her to find her mother, I just wanted my MC to decide she has forgiven her mother's mistakes and then her mother just sort of rocked up to tell her daughter she forgave her too.
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Most of the time, before I actually go writing everything down, I play scenes in my head. I do them at night and listen to music even though I'm supposed to be sleeping. (that's the only way I can go to sleep) Anyway, I don't know what I was doing but there was this scene where my MC dies. It's a very long deathscene and it's all very dramatic because the person she loves is right there, begging her not to leave. Yeah, I started crying like heavily... I never ended up writing that scene because it made no sense, but there are still parts in my novels that are really emotional and I don't cry only because I tell myself not to.
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One of my FMCs has had a terribly abusive past. I've known this for ages. But when it came time to write it alll down... I started crying. I felt awful. It was so sad.
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It wasn't this NaNo story, but I wrote this other story where my MC was observing her dead mother in a gurney a few yards away after she woke up from a car accident they were both in. I didn't cry when I wrote it, but when I reread it a few minutes later I started to tear up and single tears spilled over... It was really sad.
"He gestured with his thumb over his shoulder to where my mom laid. She looked more peaceful than ever. It was a sorry sight, but I couldn’t seem to take my eyes off of her.
Her pale blue eyes were closed, resting inside of her eyelids, and her short blond hair was tucked behind her ears, and pulled in front of her shoulders. There were some bloodstains on the shoulders of her favorite powder blue blouse, and some red smears on her forehead and scalp. "
She was close to her mommy =(
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In my story I wrote over the summer, I have a love triangle going, where the FMC desperately loves both MMC's, but they aren't so friendly with each other. Both of them are dying after a horrific battle, and one of them gives his life energy to save the other one, the one who the FMC has been best friends with since childhood. But his last request is for Riyamond, my FMC, to kiss him as he dies and I just... gahhh. I bawl every time I read it, I cried when I wrote it.
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“Sinsestre…” Her face was pale as snow.
“Milady, you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.” His breath was labored, his words faint. “Riyamond… kiss me, please.”
Choking back a sob, she leaned over him, her lips brushing against his. Hair cascading around their faces, it was as if time had stopped completely. His last moment, just for her.
Warmth tingled through her, and reluctantly she pulled away. His dying breath lingered on her cheek.
Sinsestre was gone.
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Ohmigod, that just made ME cry. And I'm not an easy crier.
I guess it just hits right to the core of a lot of emotional story stuff I'm working on right now. In two fanfictions I have running at the moment a female character has to make a choice between two guys she loves, and it's REALLY tough both times for her and me, because I'm the author, and... gah, that just brought all the feelings flooding back. I'm actually writing a song called 'Back Off, She's Not Mine' which is from the perspective of a guy defending a girl he's in love with, even though she's in love with another guy.
I am totally putting that bit of writing in my Quotes (it's just a file on my computer where I stick memorable stuff) and if you get that book published, I will be on the lookout for it!
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Whenever I write about a certain character, I always cry. I'm not even sure why. Even thinking about him now is making my eyes well up. He's just so...I don't even know. But he makes me cry. There's just so much life behind his words. All my other characters are just so flat compared to him.
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I just killed my first character. He was my favourite. He was supposed to die a lot sooner, but somehow he managed to keep himself in until now, and while I was writing it I was thinking of ways that he may escape.
But it had to be done, and it was just so sad because he didn't realise that it was coming, just a few moments before he was laughing happily.
I barely reached the word count for today as I really didn't want to continue writing.
But I think the strangest thing for me is the way which this affected me, as I knew from the very beginning that he was going to die. I guess I just didn't anticipate me liking him as much as I ended up doing.
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I ended up killing my first character near the end, and he was my favorite too. ;(
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when my MMC said goodbye to his horse...
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Yeah, I've had a couple of scenes that just hit a little too close to reality I guess. Hate crying, but at least the cats don't make fun of me when I do it.
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I was in the midst of writing a letter than my FMC writes to her younger sister (who is actually dead), she expresses all of the things she never had the courage to tell her sister.
I was crying as I was writing it, and it was slightly embarrassing because I was at work, but luckily no one saw me. Haha.
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Ahh yes, I did this yesterday! A scene where my MC has to come to terms with forgiving the person who killed her best friend. Yikes, my heart is beating faster just remembering writing about it!
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I haven't cried yet, but I've felt the emotion. Probably because I don't cry easily.
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When my FMC realized that because of the choices she made she would very likely be hated, when all she wanted was a single friend. :(
It (mostly) works out for her in the end, but at that moment I just felt awful. IT'S OKAY DIAMPHA, YOU'LL BE OKAY!
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Yep. Yesterday I killed my main character's mother. It was unexpected, actually, I hadn't planned for it to happen, but it had to happen.
It was a very painful scene to write. The mother was a criminal, a death mage. MC spent most of this month wavering between hating her mother and what she had done, and being afraid of her, and wanting to see her again as the good, kind mother she remembered from when she was a child.
The waterworks started when MC, watching her mother die, realized that this was the first time in years that her mother had ever looked human. The mother's last words were, "I'm so proud of you."
Please excuse me whilst I go and bury myself.
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i cried at a scene near the end where my main pair have to go home after a hard journey, and jovita is afraid that she won't see her new best friend again, and secretly wants to go home with him [no, there's no romantic angle]. and then when he shows up at the end of the story, i cried again, as they know that they can meet up again.
in general, death scenes of significant characters as well as heartwarming scenes can get me teared up.
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I cried when I read a scene I had written a couple of weeks ago. The FMC is afraid she may have to demean herself in order to keep her job (in an economy much worse than ours is today). In a moment of quiet contemplation, she finds courage she didn't know she had. Her brave words of self-support brought me to tears.
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There's a scene in my novel that I actually did cry a little writing. During a flashback I had a FSC die, and I liked my MSC (who was deeply in love with her) so much that it actually hurt me to kill her. :<
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Crying at your own writing sounds like such a special thing. :) Hopefully I'll experience it some day. I never have, but this year's NaNo wasn't so sad. I did laugh a lot while writing moments that were meant to be humorous, though. Made me feel like I was doing something right. I imagine crying works the same way.
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My God, you guys. I cried over my own work again today, but this time it was different. So very different. Usually I just shed a few tears and feel a little sad. This time I was actually dry-sobbing and wailing.
I did not plan this development, but my MC ended up attempting to sacrifice herself in the eleventh hour to save her sister's life and keep the Big Bad from carrying out their plan. (At the moment, I'm not even sure if she's even alive. This hurts.) Not only did she use death magic - which she has always been against - to stop the Big Bad's emissary from killing her sister, she put herself in a position to absorb the Big Bad's soul in her body, to contain it and keep it from using any of its powers. Her lover must shoot and kill her to ensure the Big Bad doesn't take over and start living in her body.
...God.
I...I never actually expected this from my MC. I knew she was going to do something heroic, I knew she would put her sister's life first, but I didn't think she would actually go this far when push came to shove.
I'm so proud of her.
And yet the knowledge that she may have just permanently left my story world is almost too much for me to bear.
I hope to God I can go on until Wednesday. And I hope I don't sound too mental.
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Rylan’s face was smeared with blood and tears, and his fingers were trembling around hers, but the muzzle of his gun pressed firmly against her temple, and she sighed, relieved that he did intend to carry through with the mission. She tried to thank him with her eyes.
*sob*
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Yeah. I just had one of those moments where I could picture everything too well, and I could relate with my characters too well. Two of my characters were being bullied. Majorly. In a very bad way. In a this-is-too-real sort of way. Then one of the people bullying them got hit by a car... And my FMC thought this soon after:
Somehow, though, we’re sitting here, helping the boys that hurt us. A human life is worth a lot. That’s all they are, just boys. Immature boys. Human. They really didn’t mean what they said. They’re doing it for stupid reasons. I feel sorry for them. So sorry for them.
I could just see that scene way too clearly in my head. I could picture everything, even though I'm so not visual. I could relate so much to my characters and the emotion they were feeling so I just started crying. They cover up for the bullies, even though there's no guarantee whether or not those boys will continue bullying them.
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I almost can't believe I killed him. It was planned. But all the while I half thought I'd chicken out and find some excuse to keep all my dearies alive. But I killed him. (Actually I almost can't believe I wrote him the way I did, that I managed to write such a tragic character. Yay me.)
He was such a sad, tormented character, so utterly alone in the world, and death was really the only way he could find peace. I think it really was the right thing to do. Leaving him alive would have been either just plain cruel (if Lucienne had survived also) or a cheap "happyhappyfunfun" ending (if Lucienne had died instead of him). The former I just flat out refused to do to him, and the latter just felt like a cheap way of saving my favourite character, who should have died. Yet... writing out the scene, seeing with my mind's eye him lying on the cold stone floor, bleeding to death...
I wanted to break the reader's heart, no my own. I guess I'm finding out that the latter is a prerequisite for the former.
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I knew the death scene was upcoming. It was a much loved wolf who died of old age, but when his head slipped off the hero's leg, I choked up, but there was no way he could live forever.... I feel bad just writing this. The hero gave a brief eulogy after burying him. It just flowed out. I still think it's really good.