I actually cried at what I was writing.

cbwriterman — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 16:03:04 +0000

In the middle of a climactic situation where the FMC and MMC find out that they are going to be separated (they're best friends) I actually started to tear up. It felt good. Has this ever happened to you?

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FairytaleEnding — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 17:05:42 +0000

There's a scene near the end of my novel where my MC is reunited with her mother (the MC ran away from home at the beginning of the novel). Even writing about it here is making me tear up a little bit... I do like the feeling of writing something that makes me cry even though I don't like crying. It just makes me feel like that it's well written, you know?

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Labyrinth Rose — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 18:24:53 +0000

One of my FMCs has had a terribly abusive past. I've known this for ages. But when it came time to write it alll down... I started crying. I felt awful. It was so sad.

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EvaJupiterSkies — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 18:56:04 +0000

In my story I wrote over the summer, I have a love triangle going, where the FMC desperately loves both MMC's, but they aren't so friendly with each other. Both of them are dying after a horrific battle, and one of them gives his life energy to save the other one, the one who the FMC has been best friends with since childhood. But his last request is for Riyamond, my FMC, to kiss him as he dies and I just... gahhh. I bawl every time I read it, I cried when I wrote it. * “Sinsestre…” Her face was pale as snow. “Milady, you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.” His breath was labored, his words faint. “Riyamond… kiss me, please.” Choking back a sob, she leaned over him, her lips brushing against his. Hair cascading around their faces, it was as if time had stopped completely. His last moment, just for her. Warmth tingled through her, and reluctantly she pulled away. His dying breath lingered on her cheek. Sinsestre was gone.

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Another Anonymous Person — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 18:56:18 +0000

It wasn't this NaNo story, but I wrote this other story where my MC was observing her dead mother in a gurney a few yards away after she woke up from a car accident they were both in. I didn't cry when I wrote it, but when I reread it a few minutes later I started to tear up and single tears spilled over... It was really sad. "He gestured with his thumb over his shoulder to where my mom laid. She looked more peaceful than ever. It was a sorry sight, but I couldn’t seem to take my eyes off of her. Her pale blue eyes were closed, resting inside of her eyelids, and her short blond hair was tucked behind her ears, and pulled in front of her shoulders. There were some bloodstains on the shoulders of her favorite powder blue blouse, and some red smears on her forehead and scalp. " She was close to her mommy =(

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iamstalkingu — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 19:15:07 +0000

Whenever I write about a certain character, I always cry. I'm not even sure why. Even thinking about him now is making my eyes well up. He's just so...I don't even know. But he makes me cry. There's just so much life behind his words. All my other characters are just so flat compared to him.

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WaistHighView — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 21:59:12 +0000

I just killed my first character. He was my favourite. He was supposed to die a lot sooner, but somehow he managed to keep himself in until now, and while I was writing it I was thinking of ways that he may escape. But it had to be done, and it was just so sad because he didn't realise that it was coming, just a few moments before he was laughing happily. I barely reached the word count for today as I really didn't want to continue writing. But I think the strangest thing for me is the way which this affected me, as I knew from the very beginning that he was going to die. I guess I just didn't anticipate me liking him as much as I ended up doing.

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Elwyne — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 22:41:45 +0000

when my MMC said goodbye to his horse...

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majorasue — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 22:52:30 +0000

Yeah, I've had a couple of scenes that just hit a little too close to reality I guess. Hate crying, but at least the cats don't make fun of me when I do it.

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MynaOphelia — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 23:33:03 +0000

[quote=FairytaleEnding] There's a scene near the end of my novel where my MC is reunited with her mother (the MC ran away from home at the beginning of the novel). Even writing about it here is making me tear up a little bit... I do like the feeling of writing something that makes me cry even though I don't like crying. It just makes me feel like that it's well written, you know? [/quote] That happens in one of my stories! Those kind of scenes, they're so powerful :o

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Smackdreezy — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 23:39:21 +0000

I was in the midst of writing a letter than my FMC writes to her younger sister (who is actually dead), she expresses all of the things she never had the courage to tell her sister. I was crying as I was writing it, and it was slightly embarrassing because I was at work, but luckily no one saw me. Haha.

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blairet793 — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 23:54:40 +0000

Ahh yes, I did this yesterday! A scene where my MC has to come to terms with forgiving the person who killed her best friend. Yikes, my heart is beating faster just remembering writing about it!

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She Who Writes — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 01:15:56 +0000

I haven't cried yet, but I've felt the emotion. Probably because I don't cry easily.

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littlewisp — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 06:04:04 +0000

When my FMC realized that because of the choices she made she would very likely be hated, when all she wanted was a single friend. :( It (mostly) works out for her in the end, but at that moment I just felt awful. IT'S OKAY DIAMPHA, YOU'LL BE OKAY!

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AniRemi — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 17:47:23 +0000

Yep. Yesterday I killed my main character's mother. It was unexpected, actually, I hadn't planned for it to happen, but it had to happen. It was a very painful scene to write. The mother was a criminal, a death mage. MC spent most of this month wavering between hating her mother and what she had done, and being afraid of her, and wanting to see her again as the good, kind mother she remembered from when she was a child. The waterworks started when MC, watching her mother die, realized that this was the first time in years that her mother had ever looked human. The mother's last words were, "I'm so proud of you." Please excuse me whilst I go and bury myself.

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bravrayj — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 18:22:04 +0000

i cried at a scene near the end where my main pair have to go home after a hard journey, and jovita is afraid that she won't see her new best friend again, and secretly wants to go home with him [no, there's no romantic angle]. and then when he shows up at the end of the story, i cried again, as they know that they can meet up again. in general, death scenes of significant characters as well as heartwarming scenes can get me teared up.

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42n8 Me — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 20:35:08 +0000

I cried when I read a scene I had written a couple of weeks ago. The FMC is afraid she may have to demean herself in order to keep her job (in an economy much worse than ours is today). In a moment of quiet contemplation, she finds courage she didn't know she had. Her brave words of self-support brought me to tears.

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wingsoflight — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 21:44:16 +0000

There's a scene in my novel that I actually did cry a little writing. During a flashback I had a FSC die, and I liked my MSC (who was deeply in love with her) so much that it actually hurt me to kill her. :<

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Rosage_ink — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 02:46:10 +0000

Crying at your own writing sounds like such a special thing. :) Hopefully I'll experience it some day. I never have, but this year's NaNo wasn't so sad. I did laugh a lot while writing moments that were meant to be humorous, though. Made me feel like I was doing something right. I imagine crying works the same way.

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AniRemi — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 03:36:25 +0000

My God, you guys. I cried over my own work again today, but this time it was different. So very different. Usually I just shed a few tears and feel a little sad. This time I was actually dry-sobbing and wailing. I did not plan this development, but my MC ended up attempting to sacrifice herself in the eleventh hour to save her sister's life and keep the Big Bad from carrying out their plan. (At the moment, I'm not even sure if she's even alive. This hurts.) Not only did she use death magic - which she has always been against - to stop the Big Bad's emissary from killing her sister, she put herself in a position to absorb the Big Bad's soul in her body, to contain it and keep it from using any of its powers. Her lover must shoot and kill her to ensure the Big Bad doesn't take over and start living in her body. ...God. I...I never actually expected this from my MC. I knew she was going to do something heroic, I knew she would put her sister's life first, but I didn't think she would actually go this far when push came to shove. I'm so proud of her. And yet the knowledge that she may have just permanently left my story world is almost too much for me to bear. I hope to God I can go on until Wednesday. And I hope I don't sound too mental.

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AniRemi — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 03:40:06 +0000

Rylan’s face was smeared with blood and tears, and his fingers were trembling around hers, but the muzzle of his gun pressed firmly against her temple, and she sighed, relieved that he did intend to carry through with the mission. She tried to thank him with her eyes. *sob*

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cbwriterman — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 14:38:50 +0000

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FairytaleEnding — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 15:42:03 +0000

I know! It was kind of unexpected too, I didn't mean for her to find her mother, I just wanted my MC to decide she has forgiven her mother's mistakes and then her mother just sort of rocked up to tell her daughter she forgave her too.

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Bewitched.Rhapsody — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 18:13:32 +0000

Yeah. I just had one of those moments where I could picture everything too well, and I could relate with my characters too well. Two of my characters were being bullied. Majorly. In a very bad way. In a this-is-too-real sort of way. Then one of the people bullying them got hit by a car... And my FMC thought this soon after: Somehow, though, we’re sitting here, helping the boys that hurt us. A human life is worth a lot. That’s all they are, just boys. Immature boys. Human. They really didn’t mean what they said. They’re doing it for stupid reasons. I feel sorry for them. So sorry for them. I could just see that scene way too clearly in my head. I could picture everything, even though I'm so not visual. I could relate so much to my characters and the emotion they were feeling so I just started crying. They cover up for the bullies, even though there's no guarantee whether or not those boys will continue bullying them.

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Ilenora — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 20:47:56 +0000

[quote]I twisted to look over my shoulder, to catch a last glimpse of the beautiful, tragic person that had been Ismael. If not for the slightly awkward position of his body and the pool of blood around him – and the crossbow bolt in his chest – he might have been sleeping peacefully; the expression on his face was the happiest I'd ever seen him.[/quote] I almost can't believe I killed him. It was planned. But all the while I half thought I'd chicken out and find some excuse to keep all my dearies alive. But I killed him. (Actually I almost can't believe I wrote him the way I did, that I managed to write such a tragic character. Yay me.) He was such a sad, tormented character, so utterly alone in the world, and death was really the only way he could find peace. I think it really was the right thing to do. Leaving him alive would have been either just plain cruel (if Lucienne had survived also) or a cheap "happyhappyfunfun" ending (if Lucienne had died instead of him). The former I just flat out refused to do to him, and the latter just felt like a cheap way of saving my favourite character, who should have died. Yet... writing out the scene, seeing with my mind's eye him lying on the cold stone floor, bleeding to death... I wanted to break the reader's heart, no my own. I guess I'm finding out that the latter is a prerequisite for the former.

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Pagadan — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 06:43:29 +0000

I knew the death scene was upcoming. It was a much loved wolf who died of old age, but when his head slipped off the hero's leg, I choked up, but there was no way he could live forever.... I feel bad just writing this. The hero gave a brief eulogy after burying him. It just flowed out. I still think it's really good.

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Amandurrs — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 08:21:09 +0000

There's a scene where my character has a mental breakdown in front of her teacher and while I was writing it I wanted to bawl and give her a great big hug. This is at least partly due to my stress over grades, finals, etc but I felt really connected to her at that moment. It was quite fantastic.

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Rinnian — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 10:43:58 +0000

I felt it this month when I had to write a scene in which my MC2, a teenage boy kidnapped as a hostage during a revolution, realizes that no help is coming for him. MC1, who is like a father to him, always promised he'd come to rescue him no matter what trouble he was in. There was just no way that was possible in this situation, so even though the boy was screaming and pleading for help, even if MC1 was able to hear it, there would've been nothing he could do. It was really sad. Then there was the bit after that when MC1 was torn between whether or not he should even try to help. He's the leader of the rebellion, so in any other case, he wouldn't even consider risking so many lives just for one prisoner. However, it's MC2, who is very special. He's eating dirt and letting himself be manipulated by the antagonists just to buy a bit more time to plan and keep the kid alive. The worst thing I've ever written, though, is completely non-canon to my stories. I had to write my character's death for use in a roleplay group in which all of the players' characters are dead. It was MC1 from this same story, and I played it out so much. He was lying in an alley slowly dying, probably bleeding to death, and just waiting to fade away. As he did, he looked back on his life. It wasn't so much a 'flashing before his eyes' thing, it was just a trail of his thoughts, as if I was free writing his thoughts, and they led from one memory to the next. They all involved people he loved, such as his brother and his love interest. Some of the memories were good, some were bad, and through all of it, I was playing such a sad, sad song as inspirational music to write by. I was about to lose it, so I stopped and took a break. I've never had the heart to start up again, haha.

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Komonio — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 12:41:07 +0000

I cried when a pivotal character in my book was murdered. She was five years old.

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Spuggey — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 13:41:26 +0000

The end of my Camp Nano novel is really sad. I read over it for the first time since I wrote it, just the other day, and I was surprised by it! :(

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mutewitness — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 16:11:03 +0000

I want that to happen to me when I rewrite mine.

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Emmylou — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 16:46:17 +0000

I had this yesterday and it's unusual for me. My character was talking matter of factly about the life she should be having with her husband when, in reality, he's dying and she'll never get that life with him.

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Emmylou — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 16:47:49 +0000

I should add that it was all bad stuff she was imagining (money worries, floods, day to day sucky life stuff) - the bad things that would have happened and she should have faced with him. That set me off far more than dreams of picnics on the beach or perfect sundays could have done.

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Mystic_Skye_inc — Mon, 05 Dec 2011 09:50:40 +0000

Yep I've teared up and I still do when working on the same scenes. I wrote the death of a character from the point of view of his sister, I know all the characters a lot better after doing so though.

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aliaswriter — Sun, 11 Dec 2011 03:57:07 +0000

No, I haven't. Is something wrong with me?!? There's lots of scenes where it should make me at least shed a tear, but no, nothing. Nada. Zip. My story has a tragic past, so it should be sad, and I do feel sad FOR THEM, but I don't feel sad.

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Angryman — Mon, 12 Dec 2011 04:03:27 +0000

I teared up a couple of times. Every time, it was an extremely emotional part for one of the characters. Makes me wonder what I'm going to do when one of my FMCs meets her father for the first time... It's not going to be overemotional for her, just a shock to her system. And *SPOILER ALERT* her father is a blues guitarist that she's a huge fan of.

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Kiwikarma7 — Thu, 05 Jan 2012 22:57:33 +0000

I ended up killing my first character near the end, and he was my favorite too. ;(

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XVisiEX — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 06:44:56 +0000

=/ I keep sniffling and crying sometimes over my characters recent death. Looking back on her whole history throughout the story's course.......she never really stood a chance. Each little dream she had for herself was destroyed by someone she loved and the final nail in the coffin was her husbands inability to defend himself against his family and be there for her. She didn't even get the pleasure of having some wonderfully heartbreaking farewell with her family or her little children the ones she still has alive. She just goes and completes one final task that she is in no physical or emotional condition to complete because she has been made to feel like a failure in everything else...and gets killed in the process. Her greatest fear comes true for her, she ended up in the dark alone again with not even a ghost to comfort her before she goes =/ I tried to think of every loop hole possible to bring her back but listening to her, she just wanted peace =/ so i figure i owe her that much ;_;

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MurillionBlue — Fri, 24 Feb 2012 15:54:16 +0000

I'm not sure if 'cried' is the right word, but I've had tears in my eyes multiple times. Although I've found that I don't cry often anyway... In no particular order (from NaNo novel only): -When the main main character's adopted younger sibling was murdered in front of said character and it couldn't do anything to stop it. -When the same character was close to breaking down due to nightmares sent by the Big Bad. -When the same character discovers its only friend and more of its adopted younger siblings have been killed. -When the same character is getting drunk at the end and starts talking about its view of what had happened to it over the last two weeks (when the events of the story had taken place). Ending in "I wanna forget everything, 'cause I can't miss what I can't remember". -In fact, most non-comedic scenes with that particular character make me sad. I guess it's because I really really like the character.

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neon.tigress — Mon, 05 Mar 2012 23:53:02 +0000

I don't usually cry *while* writing, but rather when I'm reading it over. For example... - when my FMC for last year's NaNo had to say goodbye to her brother, forever. - when my MC of a different novel discovered he had another sister, and began to hope that, even though he'd lost one sister already, he might still gain one. - the epilogue of the above-mentioned novel, but that was more because it was the end of something into which I'd invested so much time, effort, and emotion. It was bittersweet, too.

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Telsanasee — Wed, 07 Mar 2012 16:32:51 +0000

Most of the time, before I actually go writing everything down, I play scenes in my head. I do them at night and listen to music even though I'm supposed to be sleeping. (that's the only way I can go to sleep) Anyway, I don't know what I was doing but there was this scene where my MC dies. It's a very long deathscene and it's all very dramatic because the person she loves is right there, begging her not to leave. Yeah, I started crying like heavily... I never ended up writing that scene because it made no sense, but there are still parts in my novels that are really emotional and I don't cry only because I tell myself not to.

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kayli12 — Fri, 09 Mar 2012 01:45:26 +0000

Ok, i am totally not a crier, but there is this one character that i REALLY love, and i know that i'm going to have to kill him! Every time i think of it i get tears in my eyes. I don't know if i'l truly be able to do it :(

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TheOneAndromeda — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 19:30:37 +0000

I was reading through one of mine and at one scene my two characters brake up (in like a flashback) and I started to cry real bad :P

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mutewolf_ — Wed, 14 Mar 2012 07:00:38 +0000

The script I had written last year for Script Frenzy....well, I had finally gotten around to reading it through and editing it and decided to read it straight through once before going back as a refresher. In the end, the MMC swallows a bunch of pills and the FMC, his love, walks in. Anyways, I put the last page down and just bawled. Ended up making my boyfriend hold me while I cried about these two characters. A lot of it is because the MMC is based on my boyfriend and a lot of my personal emotional crap is caught up in the play. I've gotten a lot better mentally since I wrote the play but it still triggered things and I have a hard time working on it some days.

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PeverellSister — Fri, 30 Mar 2012 20:41:57 +0100

I just finished writing the scene in which my MMC "dies." I didn't cry when I killed him, 'cause he's coming back at the end, but when my FMC started crying, so did I. She repeats some of the words that he said to her after another character died, and I just started tearing up. My brother is sitting right across the room. I hope he doesn't think that something's wrong with me...

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jen_28 — Fri, 06 Apr 2012 01:22:49 +0100

(warning of possible trigger) My character just completely took me by surprise. He was supposed to be going to quit his job, and he ended up jumping off his off building. After days of total block I started writing this thing and ended up having a whirlwind 20 minutes - I wasn't sure what he would do in the end, and now I can't stop crying! My poor dude, and he has a wife and daughter. I've never cried at anything I've written before!! Feel a bit drained now!

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GoneLookingForMyself — Tue, 10 Apr 2012 22:21:50 +0100

Ohmigod, that just made ME cry. And I'm not an easy crier. I guess it just hits right to the core of a lot of emotional story stuff I'm working on right now. In two fanfictions I have running at the moment a female character has to make a choice between two guys she loves, and it's REALLY tough both times for her and me, because I'm the author, and... gah, that just brought all the feelings flooding back. I'm actually writing a song called 'Back Off, She's Not Mine' which is from the perspective of a guy defending a girl he's in love with, even though she's in love with another guy. I am totally putting that bit of writing in my Quotes (it's just a file on my computer where I stick memorable stuff) and if you get that book published, I will be on the lookout for it!

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Xyex — Wed, 18 Apr 2012 18:20:42 +0100

I've never out-and-out cried, but I've had the whole 'burning eyes' thing, where I've been on the verge of tears. The worst was a NaNao from a few years ago. One of the scenes near the beginning had one of my protags packing up for a mission (he's in the military) that it would be impossible for him to return from (he'd be trapped at his destination if the mission succeeded, and dead if it failed). He's got two little girls, and I hadn't planned it, but the youngest of them ran off to her bedroom and came back a moment later with the stuffed lion she sleeps with, giving it to him to 'keep him safe' while he was gone, and because she wouldn't need it to protect her from the monsters anymore since he was going to be getting rid of them all.