To those of you who've been motivating me along, and with apologies to those who haven't a clue what I'm on about....
My CT scan results were supposed to come through in around two weeks but I have had a call today as a large mass is showing up on my scan pictures. We don't know what it might be; what is self-evident is that I am now facing a fourth bout of major surgery, my second in less than six months.
I don't know if I can finish Nano - probably not. But it has helped me to get through these last awful weeks and I am truly grateful for that. I shall try and keep going but not today.
If those of you who believe in vibes and prayers would be kind enough to send some my way, I would be truly grateful.
Cat x
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Nov 17, 2008 - 04 54
*hugs ever so tightly* you poor thing... may the goddess be with you and help you heal... will do whatever i can from here...
----------The Official Elementalists' Site (flash)
The Lie
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Nov 17, 2008 - 05 01
Cat, I have been reading though not yet replying to other threads - but wanted to let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers.
I hope you find time to write to keep yourself sane, even if you don't finish it.
Do look after yourself.
*hugs*
----------~ Auntie Doris Akela Morag Flootach Zovut Araneliën Guru FYAP~
♪♫ ~ Honorary Cat Status ~ ♪♫
я обиделась
~ שלום ~ ღ ~ سلام ~
50,083 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 05 05
i dont know who you are but
i wish you wellness anyway.
i hope that you can keep writing...
50,075 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 05 10
Oh, sweetheart.
It sounds like this has been just about a shit year for everyone, doesn't it? My mother was diagnosed with lung cancer earlier this year, and went through her chemo regimen until September - she's doing much better now, but it was so hard to be so far away. My little brother was killed at the end of October, which sent me from teetering on the verge of "should I/shouldn't I" to jumping into Nano headfirst to bring me motivation, a distraction, a sense of community and the joy that comes with writing.
Not telling you this to bring you down, but merely to explain that I've had a lot of prayers sent my way this year - both from this community and many others. I've got a whole bag left over, and they are on their way to you.
You may not finish this year's count. Then again, you might - looks like you're darned close as is. But you have all the love, strength and support of this very large, very loud community behind you. Those obnoxious sounds? Are us cheering you on.
Please, please, please keep us updated. And if you want to talk ever, don't hesitate to send me a PM.
Love, light and laughter,
----------K
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~ Kai
Nano 2008: AWAKENING
http://thecityofdis.livejournal.com
~ Kai
Nano 2008: AWAKENING
http://thecityofdis.livejournal.com
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Nov 17, 2008 - 05 12
Sending you lots of healing vibes. My thoughts are definitely with you and I hope you can continue to do that which brings you joy.
50,718 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 05 20
Just came across your post, but couldn't leave without writing a quick word...I'm sorry to hear that they found a tumour.... I really hope this next surgery goes well and it is the last you'll have to endure. And I'm glad Nano's helped you; I hope you are able to keep writing!
Here's to a fast and full recovery! *Sends vibes with all my heart*
50,092 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 05 29
*major, major hugs*
We are all here for you. I am sending wishes and prayers and all the positive energy I can your way. Keep us updated, and most importantly, don't lose hope. Sometimes all it takes is the belief that everything will be alright.
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Nov 17, 2008 - 05 33
Thank you.
This is not unexpected - I knew something was very wrong with me, and I guess we still don't know exactly what it might be.
I will post to let you know what happens next.
Cat x
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Nov 17, 2008 - 05 38
My prayers to you and to your family.
50,603 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 05 47
I'm sending lots of good vibes your way. Best of luck xx
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Nov 17, 2008 - 05 49
I pray that you will be heal and healthy once again, I was given news of a tumor but I have used that information to move me forward, it's now more important than ever to put down what I have to say, whether it's regret, happiness, funny or just how silly life may be.
So in between your prayers and sadness, say to yourself I've got something to do, "I've got to finish this race" and something profound might just come out. May the length of your days be far extended past the end of your novel. Keep writing!! we're all pulling for you.
50,313 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 06 09
I am, too, very sorry to hear about this... It feels surreal, even for me, so I can barely even begin to imagine what it must be like for you.
----------Even so, I am two hundred percent sure that you're more than strong enough to pull through and fully recover! And I don't even know you... Still, I'm sure!
All my thoughts and well-wishes are sent your way from Sweden - I hope they'll reach you in good shape.
Take great care, and I hope to see you around the NaNo community for at least ninety more years! That's the absolute minimum!
*loads of hugs*
NaNoWriMo 08 - Pigments of Imagination (50,313)
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Nov 17, 2008 - 06 21
my goodness, November just has it out for everybody.
May the Goddess look after you and let your surgery go well. You're in my thoughts and prayers; strength and love to you.
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Nov 17, 2008 - 06 32
May God carry you through this difficult time... thoughts and prayers of healing and strength go out to you.
50,249 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 06 42
You're at 32k. If NaNo has helped you along this far, I think you can finish and it can help you more; a symbiotic relationship between author and novel.
I'll be thinking of you, wishing you strength.
----------[witty description and request for free coffee go here]
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Nov 17, 2008 - 07 03
*sending oodles of good vibes to you*
May you heal swiftly...and be as comfortable as possible while undergoing treatment.
If you feel like writing - write ! It may give you something to do, something to look forward to.
----------And if you can't - then give yourself a break.
We will be cheering you along either way :-)
Though leaves are many, the root is one.
W.B. Yeats
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Nov 17, 2008 - 07 11
So sorry to hear this Cat. I'll be thinking about you although I'm not a praying person.
Cyran
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Nov 17, 2008 - 07 55
I just said a prayer for you and I am sending a ton of virtual hugs your way. For you to have written more than 30K with suspicion of this weighing on your shoulders is amazing. I hope that you feel well enough to continue and that you heal completely. My aunt had a brain tumour when she was about 33, she is now about to turn 50 and in great shape. I hope that you will heal just as well. I'll be sending good vibes your way.
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Nov 17, 2008 - 08 36
*hug* I'll be praying for you.
59,085 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 09 40
Thank you - I have tried to write a little today......
I went to see my doctor and the whatever-it-is measures 7x2 cms. How odd. My daughter asked me if I'd swallowed a pencil during NaNo!!
Will keep you guys informed; now I am awaiting an urgent appointment. Probably will be seen by the consultant Thursday evening.
Cat x
50,005 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 10 09
Both prayers and good vibes from here as well. Best of luck, you know what miracles those doctor fellows can do these days!
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Nov 17, 2008 - 10 16
I hope your mass turns out to be nothing very bad, maybe even a false alarm. If not, I hope your surgery is a smooth success.
You have my prayers.
----------I had a soul ... but NaNoWriMo eated it. :(
Breeder of Plot Wolverines
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Nov 17, 2008 - 10 35
The CT is very clear that the mass is there, but it could be anything from more surgical adhesions, to that which we all fear.
No way to know, just yet.
But I am feeling much more positive after a long chat with my doctor and am prepared to just take each day as it comes.
Thank you so much for all the messages. I am still trying to write a chapter that makes sense, but I haven't given up, thanks to you all!
Cat x
50,207 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 11 03
Just saw this post for the first time, and wanted to let you know I had a lung tumor when I was a teenager, and recovered rather quickly after I had that lobe of my lung removed (it was completely collapsed). I wish the same for you.
If you can't finish Nano now,, maybe we can host a "mini nano" for you in the future, where we all say, "OK, this is the two weeks that Cat X will be finishing her novel (you are so close!!!) and we'll cheer you on like crazy.
(((HUGS))))
50,054 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 11 05
Hugs coming from the frozen north as well.
I hope everything turns out okay.
Shelley
51,288 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 11 09
Here I am to send a hug. :) Even if you don't finish NaNo this year, those 32,000 words you have are amazing. You've done well.
----------Wishing you the best.
__________
"Why can't we write like normal people?!"
A quote from the film 'Primer'... hauntingly appropriate every November.
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59,085 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 11 42
Well, I've no doubt that it is utter drivel but I have managed, after a long day and many stops and starts, to write 2469 words - one chapter.
So I have updated my word count to 35252 and am now going to go and lie down. Again, lol!
Thank you. I will keep you posted.
Cat x
53,930 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 12 37
*sends hugs and good vibes*
----------NaNo 2008 - "Ritualistic Formalism" - WON
50,184 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 12 58
Well done, Cat. Rest well :-) *hugs*
----------~ Auntie Doris Akela Morag Flootach Zovut Araneliën Guru FYAP~
♪♫ ~ Honorary Cat Status ~ ♪♫
я обиделась
~ שלום ~ ღ ~ سلام ~
50,041 / 50,000
Nov 17, 2008 - 13 57
*huggles* That's awful. Feel better soon! You are in my thoughts and prayers for as long as you need them.