I have had bipolar disorder for i dont know how long, but have been in a manic phase for like the last two weeks. every day i have been able to reach like at least 3-4 thousand words, and i think i have my bipolar disorder to thank for that. In the two months previous to nanowrimo, i spent most of my time pretty much doing nothing(World of Warcraft counts as nothing), and probably, in the month or two following nanowrimo, ill go back to a depressive phase.
anyone else got a disorder to thank for them finishing up nanowrimo?
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Like 5 novels deep, i figure ill write another ten and eventually get an agent
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Nov 14, 2009 - 16 34
It may sound bad, but I keep hoping to flip in to a manic phase so I'll be able to catch up. So far it hasn't happened.
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Nov 14, 2009 - 17 14
I'm branded type II bipolar disorder. My episodes don't occur in weeks or days, they occur in hours. When I write, I have to write through the emotions. It actually effects my character, but that is fine. We both benefit from this in the end. Depending on my mood, my character would either end up in a bad situation and have to fight through it, or end up in a good situation when something goes bad. It's very therapeutic.
----------NaNo '09 - Void
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Nov 14, 2009 - 18 10
I spend most of my time in the depressive phase.
----------I'm writing a romance and in a way one might think it would be harder to write a romance being depressed, but actually for some reason this month its made it easier because I am writing it completely from the males point of view-I am a female. So it kind of gave me a different viewpoint when I might have written the book in first person from the female point of view, I'm writing well in the third person males point of view where I usually don't do well. So in a way it has helped. Which gobsmacks me!
We're all lonely for something we don't know we're lonely for. How else to explain the curious feeling that goes around feeling like missing somebody we've never even met?
- David Foster Wallace
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Nov 14, 2009 - 18 29
well, i dropped out of school thanks to my anxiety/depression and now have nothing to do
but job-huntbut write, so ... yes!51,457 / 50,000
Nov 14, 2009 - 19 20
**waving hello from co-morbid diagnoses of Borderline Personality Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder** I let my serial killer work out all my frustrations. :)
----------- perpetual redemption -
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Nov 14, 2009 - 19 38
Well, I don't have bipolar disorder, but I do have OCD. And the fact that my little graph bars don't match up with the daily goal ones? Driving me up the wall. All the more reason to get my wordcount up to where it's supposed to be, right? ;)
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Nov 14, 2009 - 19 51
Asperger's here. No friends to interrupt, intense fixation on my novel (doesn't make me immune to procrastination, though), all that time spent playing videogames alone when other people would have been socializing has really gotten my hands strong and fast, so I can type at a good clip. On the physical side, I took sick basically on Halloween and have been able to take a lot of time off to work on NaNo.
----------R + L =/= J, alright?
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Nov 14, 2009 - 20 17
I was re-diagnosed (ultradian cycling induced by Wellbutrin, but off of meds only sometimes rapid-cycling) bipolar II with adult ADHD this past Tuesday, after a five-year-long diagnosis of comorbid dysthymia and panic disorder, and somehow, the trileptal I started FOUR DAYS AGO sent me into a hypomanic phase. Was productive for one day of that, then just anxious and jittery, and today I fell back into the deep depression I've been in for the last few months.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO I wish I could be as lucky as you, or anyone else whose hypomanias or manias have been helpful enough to let them finish, but it seems my brain never lets me get what I want (a happy medium), or even to be productive when I'm not getting what I want :/
I haven't been to class in months and will soon be on official medical leave (I've only been out of the hospital, after a suicide attempt, since the last week of October) and THEORETICALLY should have the time to force myself to catch up, as I'm also agoraphobic and have been housebound since September, but I guess we'll see. Wish me luck D: Good luck to all of you, though, in both your mental healths and word counts! :***
----------they just howl all night long
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Nov 14, 2009 - 21 35
wow, you really sound f====ed up. my god you win the disorder race.
----------im currently on Lamictal Seroquel and trazadone, and those seem to keep me in a pretty positive mood most of the time. i mean there is always the occasional thought of suicide or self-hate, but i find that those bad feelings only last me a few minutes. im generally able to nip those in the bud whenever they creep up(probably cause of the medicine.
but damn, housebound is a different story
Like 5 novels deep, i figure ill write another ten and eventually get an agent
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Nov 14, 2009 - 21 41
Oh yay, a thread for bipolar people! This makes me happy, as someone who also has bipolar, to communicate with others who have it and are doing NaNo. I thank a hypomanic episode for giving me a head start on it this year and having a good early word count. Right now my doc is futzing with my meds, since I've been cycling way too much lately and had visibly clear manic and depressive episodes, and he switched me to Abilify. Thus far I'm not too sure about this drug, since all it has done thus far is make me panic and paranoid (today when I was in the shower, I was certain that someone had shot my roommate and was going to shoot me when I got out of the shower). I'm hoping that doesn't affect my NaNo, since I got a great count in today.
But yeah, I totally used a hypomanic phase to my advantage in NaNo. I've done that before, too, and that's how I won the last time that I won.
(other than that, bipolar sucks, and I wish I didn't have it)
----------2006: Rapsodia Borealis (fail)
2007: Grains of Stone (win!)
2008: Shadow Bowing (fail)
2009: Time Clinic (win!)
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Nov 14, 2009 - 21 56
I haven't tried it, but I bet drinking an energy drink would make me write a three thousand words an hour. I mean, when I am on my meds, and am pretty chilled out, It is pretty hard for me to go to one of the extreme parts of the spectrum, like massivelly depressed or hypmanic. One time though, i went to the mall and had a red bull and was talking a thousand words a minute.
----------energy drinks+being bipolar=doesnt work right, unless you wanna drive everyone you know up a wall
Like 5 novels deep, i figure ill write another ten and eventually get an agent