Excerpt: Starting Over

"Nana Jaqui,
I never thought I would ever have to write this letter, and even if I did have to write it, I was sort of hoping I wouldn't be writing it so soon."

By the way, if this sort of doesn't make sense at any point, please ignore the randomness, I'm probably watching the TV while I'm writing, and I have a habit of getting somewhat distracted. For example, I'm watching Michael MacIntyre at the moment, and he's hilariously funny, so I am likely to be extremely distracted. He's also kind of cute in a Toff type of way.

"It has been just over six years since you left, and I have never missed you more than I do right now. It still seems like only yesterday that we were having a barbecue in the garden to celebrate baby Kyra's birthday, and you ended up flirting with the guy that mum had hired to tidy up after the party. I say it seems like only yesterday, and yet it was over seven years ago. Milo says to say hi by the way. I don't know why, especially after what he did to you, but I suppose that seeing as you're never going to read this letter, I may as well send his regards.

"I still feel really guilty for what happened, but I was never expecting to have Milo in my life, so if anyone's to blame, I hate to admit it, but it is actually you. If you hadn't moved him in just after you met him, and then asked him to give up his job just because you thought a relationship with a cleaner was beneath you, then I wouldn't have been around him so much. Besides which, what the hell were you doing with somebody twenty four younger than you anyway? He was only nineteen when he moved in for Christ's sake. He was only five years older than me. He was young, hot and around all the time. You were out making money, which was supposedly to pay for me and James to go to university, and I was home, spending more time that I should have been with your sexy nineteen year old husband. And don't think I don't know that you never intended for that money to go to me and James. James hates you still for not wanting to make sure that he got a chance at uni. He's enjoying himself at Medical School by the way. And he's done it all off his own back because he wants his share of your money to go to Kyra. You never even figured her into your will, and I can't forgive you for being so heartless you your own grandchild. Just because she's a lot younger than James and I, it doesn't mean that she's any less worthy. James has worked two jobs and double shifts to pay his way through Medical School, because you couldn't be bothered to care enough for a little baby.

"Milo wants me to stop writing now, because he doesn't want me to get too carried away and write something I'll regret.

"I'd tell you more, but Milo is trying to steal my pen.

"Jessica"