Brief Author Bio:

I'm Vanessa... Nessa... Gypsy... Bitch... Slut... Whore... Cunt, all depends on who you ask and what mood they're in when you ask them.

I am a 24 year old bi-polar girl... woman... girlish woman. I don't know. Sometimes I feel too old for my body and at others I feel as though I haven't earned it yet. I am the mother of a beautiful soon to be 3 year old little girl who currently lives with her Nana and Papa. The soon to be step mother of a goregous 6 year old girl.

I spend most of my time in front of this computer, stuffed in the kitchen of the bar I work at, or snagging my darling's car and running away for a few fleeting moments of peace from the world.

I have spent most of my life hiding who and what I really am. Hiding the emotional and mental scars, covering the physical ones (though there aren't many of them). I've been raped and beaten, berrated and unwanted. I've also been held and protected, loved and wanted.

I have a very small circle of close friends who know pretty much all there is to know about me that I've been able to bring myself to share with them. They (as one of them says) are the family I choose. Then I have my family. Can you say dysfunctional? Oh well... I didn't pick 'em but I still love 'em... well... most of them.

I have a firey temper and lately it hasn't taken much to spark it. I've been told many times my hair should have been red instead of brown. HEHEHEHEHE

I'm a bit of a putz sometimes. Once again... told many times my hair should have been blonde. (Guess what... it was for the first 6 years of my life.... ) I have my moments where I am among the dumb.

I'm a loyal, compassionate, forgiving, loving psycho. Once I give a part of myself to someone or something that's all there is to it. There's no going back, no restarts. I believe that if you love something or someone then you should fight for them.

If anyone sees fit to friend me, be warned you may see very vague and/or crazy posts. Don't be afraid. I don't bite... hard. Unless of course you ask me too.

Welcome all to the insanity that is me. I hope you enjoy the ride. Forgive my rambling and babbling, I'm not quite fully awake.